in-finem:

I don’t feel anything recently. I’m not happy, god I’m nowhere near happy. But I’m not crying and I’m not angry and I’m not throwing punches. I’m so calm, it’s scary. I just want to go to sleep. But I don’t know if I’m already asleep. Nothing feels real any more, its all dream like, its temporary. I don’t really know what’s going on. I’m just going along with it. 

(via shutupiamadreamer)